So as many of you know, I’m pretty active on periscope. Basically periscope is an app where you can broadcast your places, connect with people, make friends from all over the world and so on just with your phone depending on how you use it. So far I really loved it.
The reason why I downloaded it is actually to watch broadcasts. I didn’t expect too much from it to be honest. I downloaded it just because, well I wanted to watch someone I follow’s broadcasts. That was it. At that time, I didn’t plan to be a scoper (which we call people broadcasting on periscope this way. ) either. I’m a such a shy girl who sweats easily or even starts to shake whenever I had to speak in front of people.
You might wonder how I could start to broadcast it. well I remember my first broadcast. it was really a crappy one. I just showed Japanese a tv program (I didn’t say anything lol). People were like, ‘what?’ Lol the weird part of me is when it comes to speaking English, I don’t mind talking much. I remember when I had to give a presentation in front of the class, I felt more comfortable talkin in English rather than in Japanese. (Don’t get me wrong. my English is super good, Lol) so it didn’t take so much for me to start to speak in front of camera. Of course I rambled or didn’t make any sense at times on my broadcasts but I kept doing it. gradually I got used to doing that. The great part of periscope community is that you can be friends with lots of lots of people from all over the world. Once you created a circle of friends, you’ll be able to make friends instantly. Honestly, I didn’t expect it. It became larger so fast! That was a happy surprise. 🙂 I’m honored to be friends with all of them. they all are great Scopers who have great contents or those who keep joining my scopes from the beginning.
Of course, there have been bad days too I admit. You know that the Internet allows you to be anonymous. You can’t expect it to be all good unfortunately. As the number of my followers got larger, I have gotten bad trollings which really bothered me at some point. I got so annoyed that I just felt quitting it. I got so self conscious about what I say or how I look. I wanted to please people who watch my scopes or entertain them, but I felt like what I was doing was worthless. I had the moments where I had self critics (I’m still working on that) when I don’t get many views.
But then I keep doing that because I have supportive people who like me for who I am always and enjoy watching me. I’m feeling grateful. I gain confidence too. I have enjoyed watching youtube too in fact but I prefer periscope that enable me to interact with people live which is the best part.
At this moment, I get too focused on pleasing everyone following me. I know it’s impossible. This applies to my real life too. I take this as a good lesson for my life. recently I talked to someone I really respect about it. She gave me a good advice. So let me share this with you. ; Often ask yourself ‘Does what I’m doing or saying make me happy?’ If it doesn’t, the rest doesn’t matter, so express it freely and be yourself.’
I wish I could list all of amazing people on periscope but ah there’s too many! I’m working on memorizing everyone’s names. I love you all. Thank you for your support. and by any chance if you haven’t been on periscope, I encourage you to join. You’re too late. Just kidding. (Trust me I don’t get paid by periscope.) my handle is Wonderland_248
I hope to see you there!
PS. The photo is screenshot by my amazing friend Jamie. Thank you!!